I missed Sunday’s Some Thing this week. No excuse really. I was avoiding being online most of the weekend. Truthfully, I really don’t feel like being online today either. It’s grey and snowy outside, and I really wish we’d bought that house down in Norton Hill that had a library with the marble fireplace now.
So now it’s Wednesday. Sorry.
Well, after some thought last week after reading the comment threads, I realized that I need to stop my NaNoWriMo project. Well, not stop, but escape it for a while. I needed to play a bit… and, to borrow Ruth Nestvold’s term from her apt post on changing her NaNo-focus, I needed to change horses in mid-stream.
I reached for a fanfiction I’ve been working off and on again at for the past few years. One of those sandbox pieces that I use to practice my characters in… Because I was really having trouble creating the father/son dynamic I wanted to portray between Alanii and his father, I figured I’d explore the father/son dynamic between Alanii and his son in the far future.
So for this WIPpet, I give you five paragraphs for the 27th. 7-2…
Still, he knew how close he’d been to death when he’d attempted that escape. He’d hoped to die in the attempt. No fifteen year old should have to pray for peace that way. He would have died if it hadn’t been for Chaz…Chaz and his father.
His father–he’d hated the man all these years, damned him for the abuse he’d received, even knowing that he’d never have lived as long as he had without the man’s near invisible guidance. What had torn them apart before he’d even been born?
No doubt it had been Daryl. Daryl’s spiteful act of sending him to the Mines suggested that well enough. He considered what little he knew about his mother. He’d only seen her once or twice. She’d been as distant as the Andar. One time he did remember, she’d backed away from him, backed away as if he’d hurt her, if he a three-year old boy had hurt her. When Avdotya chided her, she’d… Oh, he remembered what she’d said. The very acid in her tone had burned those words in his mind. ‘We didn’t want him, either of us, Mother. How could Father force something so horrible on us like this?’
He clutched at the ring. Maybe he was just making excuses for the man who had fathered him. Maybe it wasn’t that way at all. Maybe he was mis-remembering.
But if he wasn’t…. Dear Goddess, he pitied his father.
Cheers to K.L. Schwengel at My Random Muse! She hosts WIPpet Wednesdays (it is like herding cats, after all) for us. WIPeteers post pieces of a draft (Work In Progress) that somehow relate with the date at the group linky and bravely invite company, comments… even gentle (or not-so gentle) critiques.
Yep… If you saw above, you know how it is. I had to change direction, and I needed to avoid the temptation of online. When I was writing, I wasn’t happy at all with anything I’d written (not even in the “this sucks but I can edit it later” but as in my Muse and I both were looking at the wordcount I was trying to force out and said to each other “Ack! Ptooey!“).
When I start losing connection to character I’ve spent as much time with as I’ve spent with Alanii, something is wrong. Even he wasn’t happy with the direction most things were headed in (well, except the sex scene… he seemed to like that 😀 ).
Anyway, I’m still working on Courting, but I brought back The Dots* to work on alongside the main project. I’m still working on handwritten pages, but the consistency has gotten spotty. I haven’t bothered to update my NaNoWriMo tally in a few weeks… Oh, well. As John Holton over at Sound of One Hand Typing has noted on a few times, anyone can copy in some text for the word count. I’ve decided that a real victory in a Writing Month challenge comes when one gains a writing habit.
And I need to work on that one a bit more before I call myself a winner, no matter what my wordcount is.
* Re: The Dots: I named that fanfiction off of the file names I’d used in my original WP 5.1 files, DotDot.Dot, DotDash.Dot, etc; and all the files were in the old DOS 8.3 convention. Yes, I’m a bit of a geek. And yes, I was still using WordPerfect 5.1 two years ago. I used it last month.