I Think… I KNOW I Can

Monday when I posted my check-in, I worried a bit.  I mean, yes, I felt really good and all after getting some long-standing stress off my chest, but I couldn’t help feeling some foreboding as well.

I’m not the kind of person to set personal limits and stick to them. I feel obliged to help on a moment’s notice (yesterday I stopped in at my son’s school just to print up a form for a field trip–one I was organizing no less–, and I started washing dishes and wiping down tables).  It’s probably my worst flaw as well as my best trait.  I want–no, I innately need to help others.

Add to that, an obsession for wanting to fill every second of every day with something new, fun and exciting (though my idea of new, fun and exciting can be as simple as a cool podcast or taking a different route home in the car) and you have a recipe for burnout and disaster in the making.

A self portrait?

A self portrait? (cred — Eden Mabee)

I do it to myself all the time. I know I do it because I’ve learned to recognize when I’ve done it better, and I’m even starting to understand why I do it, but I haven’t figured out exactly how to stop doing it. I’ve just come to accept part of who I am is this wave-like creature who gushes in with a tide of enthusiasm and energy and then must draw back, sometimes leaving a cluttered beach of shells and polished shards, sometimes leaving a smooth clear surface for others to imprint themselves upon. (One can even predict the severity according to the moon… 😉 )

Anyway, this is supposed to be a ROW80 check-in and WIPpet Wednesday post, not a… whatever that was.

ROW80

ROW80LogocopyIt’s only been a few days, so I don’t have too much to report as far as the ROW80 goes.  I’ve written, had another awesome writing group gathering with our local NaNoWriMos, and I got in my planned for time with my characters (though barely).  I did some pre-push up prep and walking, but in all it was a lazy couple of days physically.  As soon as I finish this post, I’m going to take the camera and the truck and see if I can find a few last run-off water falls to scout for photographs.  It’s a gorgeous sunny day, and I might find something nice along the local trails.

I don’t have much else to report.  So why don’t you go to our linky and visit some other ROWers too?  We all love company (and comments).

WIPpet

Yes!  I did it.  I said I would be back for WIPpet Wednesday, and… here I am.  Now…  if I could only remember how…

Nah, that’s just silly.  I know how to WIPpet, but I probably should still explain how it’s done for anyone new to the idea.  The WIPpet is a blog hop where writers post a small sample of a Work In Progress that relates in some way to the date.  Like today…  It’s tax day in the US, April 15th, so I chose a scene related to taxes from my ever-growing Swan Song series.  Usually I just pick a number of words that matches the date through some arbitrary mathematical formula.

The Hastor pursed his lips. “It’s a common site. Most every one knows about it”

Alanii started to say “And this is bad how?” but only got as far as opening his mouth. He knew what the man was saying. A common site, the Andar’s only heir with little more than 25 men armed for a peaceful mission, even if they did all happen to be knights of the Royal Guard…. The letters for the Lanii lord likely were valuable enough on their own. Travelers had been attacked and slain for far less by brigands

That’s it. If you want to read more WIPpets, check out our linky. There’s all sorts of reading fun to be had there.

23 responses to “I Think… I KNOW I Can

  1. I can so relate to your self-description. I hope you had a beautiful walk and good luck on your goals this week!

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    • Thank you, Kristen. I suspect more people than we could imagine have a similar issue. I just hope they deal with it better than I do.

      It was a beautiful walk.

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  2. While exciting days filled with fun events are great, sometimes it’s nice to just have down time. 🙂
    Your Swan Song series sounds interesting.

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    • It is nice to have downtime. I just don’t know though… sometimes it’s harder than I’d like to get moving again when I stop.

      Thank you. 😀 (I think it is, but I’m biased.)

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  3. Sounds like some excitement is brewing!! Glad to see you back in the wippeteers!

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  4. Two returned prodigals this week! Yay! ((hug))

    I love the word picture and the foreboding in this snippet. I can picture that big group of men all there just to protect a few papers. It’s one of those ironic but necessary things.

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    • It always depends on what the papers are, doesn’t it.

      A returned prodigal? *hangs head* I…. I didn’t want to leave.

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      • Awww 😦 *throws more hugs* I’m sorry things have been like that for you.

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        • *blushes* Thanks. Though it’s just been more hectic and crazy and insane and… well, none of it has been technically bad, but it was so busy and there was always more and more that needed to be done yesterday, and I hated disappointing people. I caused myself more trouble than they caused me, but it took me realizing I’m just a girl who cain’t say no to start understanding what had happened.

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  5. That first bit – that was YOU, that’s what. So very you I smiled and wanted to get in the car and come hug you (but I’m not going to, because it’s late, and I can do it tomorrow, I hope.)

    We’re both waves – of very different types. How apt.

    I think recognizing it, and understanding why can go a long way toward shifting it naturally, without needing to stop it. Kind of the way the waterfalls around here stop (and, ironically, I posted about waterfalls, today, too, here…http://shanjeniah.com/2015/04/15/mosquitoes-mooney-falls-and-the-makings-of-a-marriage-atozchallenge-day-15/).

    I love those NNWM write-ins. Such diverse and cool people, and I’m glad we meet all year round, because I so needed that chance to begin taking hold of my own life. Kids’ll be grown in the blink of an eye, now.

    As for the WIPpet -Welcome back!!!!

    I’m confused. I think more context would be helpful. Is Alanii investigating a crime? Charged with protecting someone? Supposed to collect a tax dept? Knowing his age and status at the time would help (I’m cursed with knowing too much about the story, and sometimes I get tangled up in it!).

    The writing is clear and lovely, and, with more context, I’m sure I’d lap it up and want more.

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    • I guess it was pretty much me… kind of scary, huh? 😉

      Somehow I don’t think we’re any of these types of waves: http://www.physicsclassroom.com/class/waves/Lesson-1/Categories-of-Waves

      And yes… yes. I have nothing I could add to your eloquent words about our NaNo group. So many writing groups tend to be about the editing and the beta reading… but there’s no right or wrong in the NaNo (or the ROW80). Though I guess an argument could be made for saying there is “write or wrong”.

      It’s always hard with WIPpets to decide how much context to include. I purposely didn’t reveal much this time, because of spoilers. But the twenty-five men in Alanii’s escort are not all fighters… Supply crew, cooks, etc. And the papers could start a war.

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  6. Great to see you back! And I definitely relate to the too busy and always ready to jump when someone needs help. Great snippet, loads brewing here.

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  7. Yay! Good to see you back. 🙂

    Those letters in the snippet must be really valuable indeed. Makes me wonder what the contents are.

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  8. I can relate to this post as well. I want to do ALL THE THINGS and I constantly have to remind myself that sometimes that’s just simply not feasible if I want to retain my sanity. I love your waves/beach metaphor – very true!

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  9. That first line seems to be so haughty. I can see the Hastor looking down his nose.

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  10. I know what you mean about helping – I work at home and people just assume I have all kinds of extra time on my hands – which definitely isn’t the case, and I’ve learned to be more protective of my writing time. Glad you’re back!

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    • I’ve oddly found that working from home means I have less time on my hands… whether it’s because, as you note, everyone acts as if I have plenty or because I keep finding more to do to fill in the gaps, I don’t know. But working at home just means a different kind of busy, imho.

      Thank, Teri.

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