Where I was and where I am going…..
You say the world’s an eventful place
You give me news
I don’t want to know
You say that I should care
That I should speak my mind
Oh, but how can I speak of the world
With a lump in my throat
And tears in my eyes
Oh, have we come to the point of no turning back
Or is it still time to get into
The swing of things
Lyrics — Paul Waaktaar-Savoy
Reading other ROWers check-ins has been extra inspiring of late. All those “the ick is over, and I’m finally starting to make headway” posts would hearten anyone, but especially for me. There is a universal nature here that adds to the supportive nature of a Round of Words in 80 Days. Truly, We Are Not Alone.
For myself things began to move more smoothly as if by chance last Friday. I’m not sure of exactly why, but I’m content to allow the Fates their moment and take reduced stress and time home with family for the gift it was. Right now, I’m getting back into a groove.
This sometimes worries me. After all, a groove is a rut as well. Do we as writers necessarily want to become stuck in our patterns? I don’t know. What do you think?
I do know that I’m finding some comfort in the “expectation of achievement” at the moment. Simply having to write these check-ins inspires me to do something so there will be something to post. Even if it’s just to say “I’m getting back into the Swing of Things!”
Of course, this doesn’t mean I’m all caught up. Catching up strikes me as a futile concept. I simply accept that I am starting new, with the same process, the same goals, the same direction. I will get where I am going, but I will arrive late. I refuse to rush myself to make up for lost time and risk an accident or burn out. I’m very blessed to have this luxury and thank those in my life who make this possible daily.
And I can say… Yep. Got some stuff done.
- New posts (two yesterday),
- a book review almost finished,
- catching up on emails (for blogs and beta reads)…
- Heck, I even managed a #teamsprint yesterday,
- and worked in some file conversions and editing of Release.
Release is actually causing me some serious emotional hassles. Kait Nolan (with her super power of writing posts that seem directly related to a personal dilemma of the moment) wrote a post that captures these hassles in spades. That’s the trouble with writing a story that has pre-history and then writing the back-story later….
Just to get my head straight, I’m looking for a few beta readers on it. It’s a long story (I just compiled it in Scrivener and … well, at 483 paperback pages, it needs trimming), but I’m looking for basic “does this fit in these parameters” (which I’ll send with the story) basics. If it does… then I will feel more inspired to do that trimming before sending it to market.